I want to be so mad at you 2020!
You know why!!!!
But every time I try, I just stand here stunned. In disbelief. In deep awareness.
My heart. It’s breaking. I can’t unsee the pain. I can’t push aside what’s happened, what’s happening.
And yet, within, there’s alignment with the deep dive, the journey –
because of the PAUSE.
because of the unrest.
because of the battles.
because of the division.
because of the burning.
It erupted … you called me in.
I want to be pissed, but how can I when the heartbreak is truly my heart breaking open.
And I know I’ve spent far too long being angry about all the wrongs in life … in my life.
I took action.
I was patient.
Good things come to those who wait?
I just wanted it to be easier to be me.
but I had to heal. no, really heal. You knew that!
So I could step fully into this life. Not sort of “in,” with a half ass pinky promise. “Sure I’ll do this thing, god, but let’s make it snappy so I can get the fuck out of here.”
2020, You have brought IT for so many reasons, and you’ve also provided the most profound awakening to my personal strength and power. I don’t recognize this woman in the mirror. And that’s a good thing.
I’m coming to see my place in the perceived shit show and I’m grateful for the pain, release, healing, clearing and growth.
I’m all in. 💕